1 00:01:10,950 --> 00:01:15,470 We've talked a lot so far about the nature of good storytelling. 2 00:01:16,130 --> 00:01:21,530 But judging from your stories, it seems like a lot of you are just flapping in 3 00:01:21,530 --> 00:01:22,530 the wind. 4 00:01:23,210 --> 00:01:25,790 Without a voice, an instrument. 5 00:01:27,410 --> 00:01:28,650 So how do we change that? 6 00:01:30,050 --> 00:01:32,130 I know I respond to something more real. 7 00:01:32,850 --> 00:01:35,390 Maybe something like a spontaneous overflow of emotion. 8 00:01:36,590 --> 00:01:38,130 Spoken like a true romantic? 9 00:01:38,690 --> 00:01:39,850 Give me too much credit. 10 00:01:40,380 --> 00:01:43,020 No, if you're writing emotionally, you're writing selfishly. 11 00:01:43,420 --> 00:01:44,940 You're not connecting with your audience. 12 00:01:45,560 --> 00:01:49,600 So readers don't connect to a story with soul. 13 00:01:52,040 --> 00:01:57,600 Is it a well-outlined plot you most respond to or emotion that reflects your 14 00:01:57,600 --> 00:01:59,240 own human experience? 15 00:02:01,400 --> 00:02:03,520 What matters is where it comes from. 16 00:02:04,920 --> 00:02:06,180 It comes from you. 17 00:02:07,680 --> 00:02:08,680 That's right. 18 00:02:10,250 --> 00:02:16,670 That is right. And in that way, the best moments of writing are instinctive, 19 00:02:16,670 --> 00:02:23,070 showing who we are and what it is we're processing from a place each 20 00:02:23,070 --> 00:02:24,470 our own. 21 00:02:26,350 --> 00:02:27,430 You up for sharing? 22 00:03:09,580 --> 00:03:14,980 The church was small but strong, resting along the low country banks where my 23 00:03:14,980 --> 00:03:15,980 father once preached. 24 00:03:16,600 --> 00:03:20,340 On summer mornings, we'd have Sunday school alongside the cooling creeks, 25 00:03:20,420 --> 00:03:24,160 listening to Bible stories and singing about this little lie to mine. 26 00:03:25,340 --> 00:03:30,840 I'd sometimes sneak away, braving the golden green marsh grass up to my neck, 27 00:03:31,280 --> 00:03:36,620 soft sun peeking through patches of Spanish moss, heat and light upon my 28 00:03:36,620 --> 00:03:37,620 face. 29 00:03:40,460 --> 00:03:41,840 what I imagine God felt like. 30 00:03:45,440 --> 00:03:51,780 But as the tides moved out, that sun shrunk away on 31 00:03:51,780 --> 00:03:56,120 the journey to single day. 32 00:04:09,350 --> 00:04:14,370 If I go up there now, baby, like a dog in heat. 33 00:05:46,630 --> 00:05:49,510 Hey, you boys want some of this while I got it out? Why don't you shut the hell 34 00:05:49,510 --> 00:05:53,210 up? You ready? 35 00:05:54,230 --> 00:05:55,370 Keep your panties on. 36 00:05:57,830 --> 00:05:58,830 Hey. 37 00:05:59,830 --> 00:06:00,830 Pick you up at 10? 38 00:06:02,370 --> 00:06:03,370 Yeah. 39 00:06:05,490 --> 00:06:06,770 You'll be there, right? 40 00:06:07,750 --> 00:06:08,790 Yeah. Huh? Yeah? 41 00:06:09,130 --> 00:06:10,130 Because we need you. 42 00:06:15,840 --> 00:06:16,840 Ten. 43 00:06:17,980 --> 00:06:22,940 We'd been friends since seventh grade, when my mom returned us to these 44 00:06:22,940 --> 00:06:24,140 waterways with her family. 45 00:06:25,440 --> 00:06:28,900 I got caught crying in a hallway and chased the other kids away as they 46 00:06:28,900 --> 00:06:29,900 laughed. 47 00:06:30,820 --> 00:06:35,700 A warrior, suddenly at my side. 48 00:06:39,460 --> 00:06:44,180 Most of the time I shut myself off, drifting back into a dark cloud. 49 00:06:46,280 --> 00:06:47,280 Slow fall. 50 00:06:48,860 --> 00:06:50,100 They called it depression. 51 00:06:51,800 --> 00:06:54,140 Then asked if I was having thoughts about suicide. 52 00:06:56,360 --> 00:06:57,360 I lied. 53 00:06:58,340 --> 00:06:59,340 Said no. 54 00:07:08,060 --> 00:07:09,060 Where you been? 55 00:07:17,190 --> 00:07:18,190 Allison called. 56 00:07:21,010 --> 00:07:22,430 They said you should be there by eight. 57 00:07:33,350 --> 00:07:34,550 The pain is a curse. 58 00:07:36,330 --> 00:07:37,830 Hand it down for my father. 59 00:07:39,050 --> 00:07:43,370 Let us remember, as the bread nourishes our bodies and our minds, and let it 60 00:07:43,370 --> 00:07:45,430 nourish your soul and your faith. 61 00:07:49,610 --> 00:07:51,610 Looking for something he'd never find. 62 00:08:02,810 --> 00:08:05,750 But at times the pain explodes out of my mind and hand. 63 00:08:07,750 --> 00:08:08,990 A sweet relief. 64 00:08:23,340 --> 00:08:28,900 Nothing. I bet you $1.99 you ain't got off that damn couch all day. 65 00:08:34,580 --> 00:08:35,059 What 66 00:08:35,059 --> 00:08:51,020 are 67 00:08:51,020 --> 00:08:51,619 you doing? 68 00:08:51,620 --> 00:08:53,230 Nothing. What did you take? 69 00:08:53,490 --> 00:08:54,490 Dick, get back! 70 00:08:56,290 --> 00:08:58,090 I'm gonna kick your ass, Howard! 71 00:08:59,130 --> 00:09:01,950 Right. You ain't gonna do shit. 72 00:09:24,070 --> 00:09:25,850 Y'all know Joseph, Charlie's little brother. 73 00:09:26,310 --> 00:09:27,310 What's up? 74 00:09:28,510 --> 00:09:30,030 Come to drink all our beer and split? 75 00:09:34,910 --> 00:09:36,830 Where's Charlie? 76 00:09:38,090 --> 00:09:39,090 He's in the study. 77 00:09:39,350 --> 00:09:40,410 Go find him. 78 00:09:40,630 --> 00:09:41,710 He's been looking for you. 79 00:09:47,850 --> 00:09:48,930 Quite the charmer. 80 00:09:49,530 --> 00:09:50,530 Gonna be. 81 00:10:03,400 --> 00:10:04,860 It means how you got an invite to my party. 82 00:10:07,160 --> 00:10:08,160 Joseph. 83 00:10:09,200 --> 00:10:12,220 What are you doing, buddy? 84 00:10:13,120 --> 00:10:14,920 I'm all right. 85 00:10:16,560 --> 00:10:17,560 Staying in trouble? 86 00:10:19,800 --> 00:10:20,800 Yeah. 87 00:10:21,440 --> 00:10:22,440 Bullshit. 88 00:10:22,800 --> 00:10:25,240 Hey, let me go say hey to some people. I'll catch up with you in a second, 89 00:10:25,280 --> 00:10:26,620 okay? All right, buddy. 90 00:10:30,380 --> 00:10:31,380 Where's my wife? 91 00:10:33,640 --> 00:10:38,500 Charlie was my half-brother, abandoned by my father when he was ten. 92 00:10:40,280 --> 00:10:45,680 He made good by being himself, a wide space between him and me. 93 00:11:21,770 --> 00:11:23,450 That's true. It's not bad. 94 00:11:24,630 --> 00:11:26,330 You just seem to have all the answers, don't you? 95 00:11:26,710 --> 00:11:30,530 I'm not saying I have all the answers, but we've all had those moments that 96 00:11:30,530 --> 00:11:35,070 feel right, where we feel like we're at our best, where we're not bogged down 97 00:11:35,070 --> 00:11:41,490 with self-doubt or fear, you know, where we trust in the world around us. Which 98 00:11:41,490 --> 00:11:42,209 is what? 99 00:11:42,210 --> 00:11:43,210 Faith. 100 00:11:43,890 --> 00:11:46,870 Striving for some sense of hope, of peace. 101 00:11:47,530 --> 00:11:50,570 The eagle soaring through the air achieves because of three things. 102 00:11:51,160 --> 00:11:54,300 His wing, the wind, and his faith in both. 103 00:11:56,240 --> 00:12:01,540 Our role is to accept that who we are is absolutely integral to that and to stop 104 00:12:01,540 --> 00:12:06,020 fighting against the concept of our value and to recognize that the world 105 00:12:06,020 --> 00:12:08,520 cannot be what it's determined to be without us as we are. 106 00:12:09,800 --> 00:12:10,800 What do you think, Joe? 107 00:12:11,560 --> 00:12:13,780 I like it. 108 00:12:14,740 --> 00:12:15,740 See there? 109 00:12:16,100 --> 00:12:18,380 There you go. Youth of America likes it. 110 00:12:36,820 --> 00:12:37,820 Yeah. 111 00:12:39,940 --> 00:12:41,860 What the hell are you doing in here? 112 00:12:42,980 --> 00:12:43,980 Nothing. 113 00:12:53,480 --> 00:12:54,720 Cars in my way. 114 00:13:08,060 --> 00:13:14,220 You can best get to cleaning this place out like I keep telling you. Whatever. 115 00:13:16,240 --> 00:13:17,560 The hell did you say? 116 00:13:19,660 --> 00:13:21,260 Live here for free? 117 00:13:21,980 --> 00:13:25,340 Barely got out of high school. Hey, you don't even have a goddamn job. 118 00:13:27,160 --> 00:13:29,680 You starting to amount to jack shit, you know that? 119 00:13:35,140 --> 00:13:36,300 You always give me such a hard time. 120 00:13:40,020 --> 00:13:41,980 You don't know what a hard time is. 121 00:14:07,760 --> 00:14:09,000 How is your mom doing? 122 00:14:11,900 --> 00:14:12,900 She's okay. 123 00:14:13,280 --> 00:14:14,280 Good. 124 00:14:15,380 --> 00:14:16,460 Do you want some of this? 125 00:14:18,140 --> 00:14:19,140 Yeah, sure. 126 00:14:20,440 --> 00:14:24,300 So, are you still thinking about school? 127 00:14:27,860 --> 00:14:29,520 You said I was thinking about school. 128 00:14:31,320 --> 00:14:34,500 Charlie, you should, you know. 129 00:14:36,100 --> 00:14:37,100 You did well. 130 00:15:09,800 --> 00:15:13,600 You know I'm going back where I belong. 131 00:15:14,240 --> 00:15:16,740 I said I'm going back. 132 00:15:18,460 --> 00:15:22,700 I'm going back where I belong. 133 00:15:29,040 --> 00:15:34,220 I was alone, but I would on occasion take company in other folks. 134 00:15:37,290 --> 00:15:39,450 Not through easy conversation or eye contact. 135 00:15:41,350 --> 00:15:43,090 That I make up stories about them. 136 00:15:44,310 --> 00:15:45,470 Where they came from. 137 00:15:47,190 --> 00:15:48,910 Based on a sideways glance. 138 00:15:50,670 --> 00:15:51,670 Or that night. 139 00:15:52,590 --> 00:15:53,590 A little more. 140 00:16:14,020 --> 00:16:15,020 How's it going? 141 00:16:18,160 --> 00:16:19,160 Alright. 142 00:16:22,760 --> 00:16:23,760 You from around here? 143 00:16:28,340 --> 00:16:29,340 Yeah. 144 00:16:31,080 --> 00:16:32,080 You? 145 00:16:33,620 --> 00:16:34,620 Not far. 146 00:16:49,060 --> 00:16:50,060 You and Daddy a preacher? 147 00:16:53,480 --> 00:16:54,480 Yeah. 148 00:16:57,520 --> 00:16:58,520 Yeah. 149 00:16:59,340 --> 00:17:00,600 You got the head of a preacher. 150 00:17:02,700 --> 00:17:03,880 The way it curves wide. 151 00:17:22,790 --> 00:17:23,790 He left his mark on you. 152 00:17:26,410 --> 00:17:27,650 The eye of God. 153 00:17:28,990 --> 00:17:29,990 There. 154 00:17:34,090 --> 00:17:35,210 Use that sight. 155 00:17:38,350 --> 00:17:39,350 You'll find your way. 156 00:18:03,620 --> 00:18:04,620 Best get to it. 157 00:18:09,240 --> 00:18:10,860 I saw something there. 158 00:18:12,840 --> 00:18:13,840 A light. 159 00:18:16,780 --> 00:18:19,120 An idea that would later live and breathe. 160 00:18:22,460 --> 00:18:24,480 Forming like the crest of a breaking wave. 161 00:18:27,140 --> 00:18:29,160 A reflection of what floats inside. 162 00:18:39,250 --> 00:18:40,250 Finally. 163 00:18:55,270 --> 00:18:56,330 Easy there, tiger. 164 00:19:00,150 --> 00:19:03,630 We gotta get ready soon. 165 00:19:06,010 --> 00:19:07,110 What are we gonna do? 166 00:19:09,090 --> 00:19:10,090 Pay attention. 167 00:19:10,990 --> 00:19:12,070 I won't get paid. 168 00:19:15,810 --> 00:19:18,230 You know my cousin down in Oka Coke? 169 00:19:19,390 --> 00:19:23,590 Yeah, he's lousy when it comes to drinking, but he sniffs out the hot 170 00:19:23,590 --> 00:19:24,590 spot. 171 00:19:30,410 --> 00:19:35,130 Told him about a little juke joint around the island he's been frequenting. 172 00:19:36,360 --> 00:19:40,100 And what happened one night when they was all drunk as hell. 173 00:19:48,100 --> 00:19:52,080 And some serious movement showed up for the plan. 174 00:20:36,409 --> 00:20:39,610 These three dudes come in with shotguns, holding the place up. 175 00:20:40,430 --> 00:20:42,910 One took on cash box, get it all emptied out. 176 00:20:43,150 --> 00:20:46,410 The other two watch the crowd making sure some hillbilly don't play 177 00:20:46,410 --> 00:20:47,410 vigilante. 178 00:20:48,750 --> 00:20:51,330 Anything come up, they all get the hell out. 179 00:20:53,790 --> 00:20:57,270 And by the time anyone was sober enough to realize what the hell was happening, 180 00:20:57,530 --> 00:20:59,370 they was long gone. 181 00:21:01,580 --> 00:21:03,640 Turns out they've been hitting joints all over the coast. 182 00:21:04,680 --> 00:21:08,040 Stealing drunk folks money while they were too drunk to do anything about it. 183 00:21:09,080 --> 00:21:11,340 And those folks sure as hell won't call in a pokey. 184 00:21:11,960 --> 00:21:16,180 Hell, they bust up the stills and shut her down in two shakes. Wouldn't give a 185 00:21:16,180 --> 00:21:17,200 rat's ass past that. 186 00:21:22,980 --> 00:21:24,480 So they just kept on moving. 187 00:21:26,220 --> 00:21:27,220 Hiding in the banks. 188 00:21:28,280 --> 00:21:29,280 Scramming. 189 00:21:31,750 --> 00:21:34,130 All anybody knew was it was three black fellas. 190 00:21:36,330 --> 00:21:37,330 Smart as hell. 191 00:21:38,790 --> 00:21:40,330 Quiet as a pack of church mice. 192 00:21:44,450 --> 00:21:45,450 Legend. 193 00:22:14,290 --> 00:22:15,290 Smells like pussy. 194 00:22:15,530 --> 00:22:16,530 Mm-hmm. 195 00:22:19,290 --> 00:22:20,730 This is serious, man. 196 00:22:21,150 --> 00:22:22,310 What, you think I don't know that? 197 00:22:27,110 --> 00:22:31,810 I ain't gonna do jack shit. 198 00:22:33,150 --> 00:22:34,150 Dang. 199 00:22:36,730 --> 00:22:37,990 How much you think we get? 200 00:22:38,990 --> 00:22:39,990 Enough. 201 00:23:01,060 --> 00:23:02,440 What? What do you think? 202 00:23:04,220 --> 00:23:05,240 You look funny. 203 00:23:06,700 --> 00:23:07,700 Yeah? 204 00:23:09,400 --> 00:23:11,560 A huckleberry here is going to save your ass. 205 00:23:12,260 --> 00:23:13,640 Shit, nothing. 206 00:23:14,780 --> 00:23:17,060 I'm tired of busting my ass to buy a six-pack. 207 00:23:20,390 --> 00:23:21,390 I'd rather change that shit. 208 00:23:26,770 --> 00:23:31,710 I'd be mad about it. 209 00:23:34,110 --> 00:23:35,450 I'd buff it out a little bit. 210 00:23:38,770 --> 00:23:39,770 Especially you. 211 00:23:41,270 --> 00:23:44,230 That shit you write. 212 00:23:45,650 --> 00:23:46,650 Yeah, that's right. 213 00:23:47,430 --> 00:23:48,610 I think what you do. 214 00:23:49,900 --> 00:23:50,940 You want to tell me? 215 00:23:51,900 --> 00:23:53,400 You know, skin off my ass. 216 00:23:59,000 --> 00:24:02,220 The folks look at me, they look at my pops. 217 00:24:03,700 --> 00:24:05,640 They figure that's all they're ever gonna get. 218 00:24:06,880 --> 00:24:08,200 It's a punk-ass brawler. 219 00:24:11,740 --> 00:24:13,580 But you... 220 00:24:34,730 --> 00:24:35,730 Step it up, Jeff. 221 00:24:48,250 --> 00:24:54,870 We weren't gonna hurt anyone. 222 00:24:55,970 --> 00:24:57,350 Gun wasn't even loaded. 223 00:24:59,010 --> 00:25:00,350 Courage was his weapon. 224 00:25:55,850 --> 00:25:56,850 Just get in there and do it. 225 00:25:57,590 --> 00:25:59,510 Two minutes from now, we'll be on our way. 226 00:27:40,460 --> 00:27:45,300 If anybody asks the names of any Roy. 227 00:28:31,270 --> 00:28:32,270 is 228 00:29:47,400 --> 00:29:48,400 Thank you. 229 00:31:44,820 --> 00:31:46,240 That's your memory. 230 00:31:51,820 --> 00:31:52,820 And now. 231 00:31:58,400 --> 00:32:00,340 I know what it feels like to be depressed. 232 00:32:03,900 --> 00:32:07,060 But you have something he probably didn't have. 233 00:32:08,740 --> 00:32:09,740 What's that? 234 00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:11,720 Your imagination. 235 00:32:25,800 --> 00:32:28,320 In response to this memory, a story came to me. 236 00:32:29,340 --> 00:32:32,380 Of a quiet man, with unseen strength. 237 00:32:33,760 --> 00:32:36,000 His horn, his voice. 238 00:32:37,700 --> 00:32:39,460 Like the song that came from me. 239 00:32:41,760 --> 00:32:42,840 Seeking a home. 240 00:32:43,860 --> 00:32:45,420 A place in this world. 241 00:32:53,280 --> 00:32:54,600 Holy shit! 242 00:32:55,840 --> 00:32:59,140 Dude, there's like a thousand bucks back here. See, what I told you. 243 00:32:59,880 --> 00:33:01,920 They eat such dumb ass after all. 244 00:33:02,500 --> 00:33:05,660 I was messed up when that guy pulled that gun. 245 00:33:05,960 --> 00:33:07,180 That freaked me out. 246 00:33:12,220 --> 00:33:13,660 You saw it happen, didn't you? 247 00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:18,600 But man, you better speak up. 248 00:33:19,080 --> 00:33:20,160 That could have been bad. 249 00:33:31,110 --> 00:33:38,050 My father once did go away to return. 250 00:33:39,350 --> 00:33:42,330 Good. He's here. 251 00:33:52,330 --> 00:33:53,810 What's this? 252 00:33:54,810 --> 00:33:57,090 Don't fucking ranger. 253 00:34:08,940 --> 00:34:09,779 I think it's pissed. 254 00:34:09,780 --> 00:34:10,820 Ross, fire! 255 00:34:11,659 --> 00:34:12,659 Rossi! 256 00:34:16,040 --> 00:34:17,139 Is he alive? 257 00:34:18,340 --> 00:34:19,340 One, 258 00:34:20,120 --> 00:34:21,239 two, three. 259 00:34:23,159 --> 00:34:25,940 I got it. What up, buddy? 260 00:34:27,620 --> 00:34:30,300 Yeah, I can take a shower, you stink ass. 261 00:34:41,449 --> 00:34:42,449 How the hell you been? 262 00:34:42,750 --> 00:34:43,750 Good. 263 00:34:44,370 --> 00:34:45,370 I'm good. 264 00:34:45,889 --> 00:34:46,889 Yeah. 265 00:34:48,670 --> 00:34:49,670 You packing? 266 00:34:51,750 --> 00:34:55,630 Man, that better not be the only reason you come to see me. 267 00:34:56,850 --> 00:35:00,790 Of course it ain't. I love me some Russell. 268 00:35:02,550 --> 00:35:03,550 Yeah, right. 269 00:35:05,370 --> 00:35:06,370 What you got? 270 00:35:13,480 --> 00:35:14,480 You'll like this. 271 00:35:15,460 --> 00:35:16,460 This stuff? 272 00:35:18,220 --> 00:35:19,760 Put the two asses in the bath. 273 00:35:21,080 --> 00:35:22,480 Get your feet off the couch. 274 00:35:24,060 --> 00:35:25,140 Hell yeah. 275 00:35:25,560 --> 00:35:26,920 Put this up in the ounce. 276 00:35:27,420 --> 00:35:28,760 I'm gonna put your boy here. 277 00:35:29,260 --> 00:35:30,280 He's such a badass. 278 00:35:30,840 --> 00:35:32,720 Usually there's a ceiling on this shit. 279 00:35:33,940 --> 00:35:35,060 Out to that shit, too. 280 00:35:37,740 --> 00:35:39,020 Sure you got this kind of dough? 281 00:35:39,260 --> 00:35:40,260 Yeah. 282 00:35:40,840 --> 00:35:41,840 I've been working. 283 00:35:44,299 --> 00:35:45,760 Hey, go hang out with that chick. 284 00:35:47,380 --> 00:35:48,380 What's her name? 285 00:35:48,860 --> 00:35:50,560 Lydia. Yeah, that's it. 286 00:35:50,880 --> 00:35:51,960 You all still talk? 287 00:35:52,780 --> 00:35:54,060 No, it's been a while. 288 00:35:54,440 --> 00:35:55,440 Smart move, man. 289 00:35:55,940 --> 00:35:56,940 That chick? 290 00:35:58,240 --> 00:35:59,780 She got Elton Titus and shit. 291 00:36:00,760 --> 00:36:01,760 That's what I'm saying. 292 00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:03,060 Yeah, me and dad bad. 293 00:36:03,380 --> 00:36:05,880 Her belly button's so big you could eat oatmeal out of it. 294 00:36:06,780 --> 00:36:08,240 And get your feet off my couch. 295 00:36:08,520 --> 00:36:11,600 Do I have to tell you twice? You want me to write it down for you? What about 296 00:36:11,600 --> 00:36:12,780 streams? You want some of those too? 297 00:36:13,480 --> 00:36:14,760 Somebody get the telephone, please. 298 00:36:24,940 --> 00:36:25,940 Hey! 299 00:36:26,900 --> 00:36:28,460 You the brains behind this operation? 300 00:36:30,840 --> 00:36:31,840 Not hardly. 301 00:36:33,020 --> 00:36:34,280 You don't talk much. 302 00:36:34,920 --> 00:36:37,520 But, uh, who else would you rather ride with? 303 00:36:39,860 --> 00:36:40,860 Hey! 304 00:36:41,400 --> 00:36:42,400 Watch your neck. 305 00:36:43,080 --> 00:36:44,080 All right, brother. 306 00:36:44,980 --> 00:36:45,980 See you soon. 307 00:36:48,300 --> 00:36:49,300 Send it later. 308 00:36:56,140 --> 00:36:57,140 Woo! 309 00:37:00,100 --> 00:37:01,100 Man, 310 00:37:02,660 --> 00:37:04,340 that's cool as hell. 311 00:37:04,880 --> 00:37:06,260 Once a lot of sun, you saw him. 312 00:37:06,820 --> 00:37:07,880 Kind of laying low. 313 00:37:08,640 --> 00:37:09,640 How come? 314 00:37:11,660 --> 00:37:12,900 It was about a year ago. 315 00:37:13,600 --> 00:37:16,260 Rusty convinced me to go see some pic to his feet. 316 00:37:16,940 --> 00:37:19,140 Now, he was drunk as hell when he picked me up. 317 00:37:19,780 --> 00:37:22,720 Three hours later, we was both back. 318 00:37:23,340 --> 00:37:24,340 Hey! 319 00:37:24,680 --> 00:37:28,360 Howdy. Hey, do you know where It'll Do is? 320 00:37:29,600 --> 00:37:30,600 Excuse me? 321 00:37:31,640 --> 00:37:32,578 It'll Do. 322 00:37:32,580 --> 00:37:34,220 It's my girl's place. 323 00:37:34,960 --> 00:37:39,180 Ben, I have no idea what you're talking about, but I suggest... You move on. Oh, 324 00:37:39,200 --> 00:37:40,200 I forget people. 325 00:37:40,280 --> 00:37:41,280 Oh, great. 326 00:37:41,660 --> 00:37:42,660 Night for nothing. 327 00:37:44,780 --> 00:37:46,560 You gonna let her talk to you like that? 328 00:37:46,880 --> 00:37:47,880 You know what? 329 00:37:48,360 --> 00:37:49,360 No. 330 00:37:55,780 --> 00:37:56,780 Hey. 331 00:37:58,620 --> 00:37:59,640 I brought faith. 332 00:38:02,400 --> 00:38:03,680 I know you know the place. 333 00:38:04,440 --> 00:38:05,720 What place is that? 334 00:38:07,300 --> 00:38:09,360 My girl's house, you bitch. 335 00:38:16,280 --> 00:38:18,780 Hey, where's the ass? 336 00:38:25,620 --> 00:38:26,620 Watch it. 337 00:38:26,840 --> 00:38:29,080 Rusty brought a sheet of ass to share with the girls. 338 00:38:29,360 --> 00:38:31,440 Now, he didn't know what to do with it. 339 00:38:31,740 --> 00:38:34,620 So he did what any clear-thinking drunk would do. 340 00:38:35,140 --> 00:38:36,320 Shoved him up his ass. 341 00:38:51,319 --> 00:38:55,980 They never found the hit so they just left him alone to sleep it off 342 00:38:55,980 --> 00:38:59,660 But he wasn't doing much sleeping 343 00:39:38,020 --> 00:39:39,020 What you writing? 344 00:39:42,680 --> 00:39:45,620 Nothing. What you writing over here? What is this? 345 00:39:45,980 --> 00:39:47,300 You gonna let me grab it like that? 346 00:39:47,760 --> 00:39:48,760 Huh? 347 00:39:49,260 --> 00:39:51,000 Come on. 348 00:39:51,280 --> 00:39:52,280 I don't know. 349 00:39:54,720 --> 00:39:55,720 Jeff. 350 00:39:57,380 --> 00:39:58,380 Stop. 351 00:40:07,460 --> 00:40:08,460 That's fascinating. 352 00:40:59,940 --> 00:41:01,960 Yeah, maybe she lets you send her like, do Kate, huh? 353 00:41:03,240 --> 00:41:05,280 You got me in misery. 354 00:42:19,050 --> 00:42:20,590 A waste in time. 355 00:43:01,330 --> 00:43:04,290 How's it going? 356 00:43:05,470 --> 00:43:11,690 What? Nothing I'm Alan 357 00:43:11,690 --> 00:43:15,850 What? The name's Alan 358 00:43:22,310 --> 00:43:23,630 Nothing much, Alan. 359 00:43:25,690 --> 00:43:26,690 And Rebecca. 360 00:43:28,890 --> 00:43:29,930 I mean, sure. 361 00:43:53,160 --> 00:43:58,820 My place of peace was always the water, where the loud buzz of fear and doubt 362 00:43:58,820 --> 00:44:05,320 washed away, and all that remained was me, pure as a simple story. 363 00:44:15,600 --> 00:44:21,220 His horn was a gift, beats of grace that sprung forth like a fountain. 364 00:44:24,080 --> 00:44:30,920 soaring over a saltwater creek, made closer to the ocean with each stride. 365 00:44:37,680 --> 00:44:42,640 But when the last note drifted down and then away, he was left with the same dry 366 00:44:42,640 --> 00:44:49,600 sorrow, where fear lurked, and touch was cold as 367 00:44:49,600 --> 00:44:50,600 midnight. 368 00:44:54,600 --> 00:45:00,280 In those small hours, he'd look up into a black sea, dotted with stars like 369 00:45:00,280 --> 00:45:05,480 lanterns on a foggy shore, lit for the lost fisherman. 370 00:45:34,860 --> 00:45:36,180 Are you kidding me? 371 00:45:36,520 --> 00:45:37,520 Whoa. 372 00:45:38,400 --> 00:45:39,440 What, punk? 373 00:45:40,820 --> 00:45:43,280 Sorry. Hey, damn straight, you're sorry. I had to beat your ass. 374 00:45:46,220 --> 00:45:47,220 Little faggot. 375 00:46:03,690 --> 00:46:08,010 Send me a seat on the carousel. 376 00:46:08,410 --> 00:46:13,250 Play me an old song that we loved so well. 377 00:46:13,930 --> 00:46:18,830 We'll keep on riding around and around. 378 00:46:19,150 --> 00:46:22,550 Every night life's up and down. 379 00:46:27,330 --> 00:46:29,270 Oh, love, the change. 380 00:46:30,470 --> 00:46:31,990 Life's up and down. 381 00:46:33,160 --> 00:46:35,020 Damned if we don't. 382 00:46:35,560 --> 00:46:37,200 Damned if we do. 383 00:46:37,800 --> 00:46:40,140 But I remain whole. 384 00:46:40,500 --> 00:46:42,740 Each night I pray. 385 00:46:43,320 --> 00:46:46,820 Good Lord, we'll find a way. 386 00:46:49,240 --> 00:46:50,240 Look at ya. 387 00:46:50,720 --> 00:46:52,660 Couple of sorry sons of bitches. 388 00:46:55,680 --> 00:46:57,560 You killed my face. 389 00:46:59,180 --> 00:47:00,180 Let's go. 390 00:47:03,020 --> 00:47:04,020 Where are we going? 391 00:47:04,380 --> 00:47:05,380 It's gonna rain. 392 00:47:08,300 --> 00:47:09,320 It's gonna rain. 393 00:47:11,040 --> 00:47:12,580 Fucking weatherman over there. 394 00:47:20,920 --> 00:47:23,340 Keeping dry? 395 00:47:24,080 --> 00:47:25,520 Got whistlers, sure as hell is. 396 00:47:27,660 --> 00:47:28,660 Let me get you off. 397 00:47:31,280 --> 00:47:32,360 Three shots of bourbon. 398 00:47:39,240 --> 00:47:40,340 Y'all get yourself one too. 399 00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:45,160 I can do that. 400 00:47:56,520 --> 00:47:57,520 The bar keys. 401 00:48:08,230 --> 00:48:09,230 Y'all set? 402 00:48:09,270 --> 00:48:10,270 I think so. 403 00:48:11,070 --> 00:48:12,070 Keep them coming. 404 00:48:43,390 --> 00:48:48,030 We'll be right back. 405 00:49:18,280 --> 00:49:19,178 How you doing? 406 00:49:19,180 --> 00:49:20,180 How you doing? 407 00:49:20,960 --> 00:49:21,960 Uh-uh. 408 00:49:22,160 --> 00:49:25,660 We, uh... We gotta finish this whiskey. 409 00:49:29,920 --> 00:49:31,900 I... I can't drink that. 410 00:49:32,680 --> 00:49:33,680 Yeah, you can't. 411 00:49:36,140 --> 00:49:37,460 I don't want it. 412 00:49:39,680 --> 00:49:41,300 Uh, Joseph could be in a pussy. 413 00:49:58,150 --> 00:49:59,150 But I'm the asshole. 414 00:50:00,730 --> 00:50:01,730 That's rich. 415 00:50:02,170 --> 00:50:04,110 You're a strange little bitch who never talks to nobody. 416 00:50:04,630 --> 00:50:07,710 I've never seen you with a chick. I've never seen you with anybody. 417 00:50:09,970 --> 00:50:12,670 You're just lucky Howard and I'd let you hang out with us. Fuck you! 418 00:50:20,830 --> 00:50:21,830 You done? 419 00:50:40,140 --> 00:50:41,760 Is that so bad, huh? 420 00:52:49,830 --> 00:52:50,830 Where'd you come from? 421 00:52:52,350 --> 00:52:53,790 Same place you going. 422 00:53:23,880 --> 00:53:24,980 This is all a gift. 423 00:53:26,980 --> 00:53:28,520 A guide to your truth. 424 00:53:30,600 --> 00:53:32,800 As real as this here sand and sea. 425 00:53:35,340 --> 00:53:36,340 What is it? 426 00:53:39,680 --> 00:53:40,680 My story. 427 00:53:41,840 --> 00:53:42,960 The one you see. 428 00:56:23,850 --> 00:56:24,850 Hey, man. 429 00:56:26,190 --> 00:56:27,190 You all right? 430 00:56:28,550 --> 00:56:29,550 Yeah. 431 00:56:30,670 --> 00:56:31,670 I'm fine. 432 00:56:34,350 --> 00:56:35,350 Where's Jay? 433 00:56:37,790 --> 00:56:40,030 No idea. 434 00:56:45,750 --> 00:56:46,890 But, man, you want to get out of here? 435 00:56:49,510 --> 00:56:50,530 We need some women. 436 00:56:51,180 --> 00:56:53,080 Good luck. You look like shit. 437 00:56:56,100 --> 00:56:58,680 I still get more ass than that dress. 438 00:57:01,620 --> 00:57:03,420 Yeah. Right. 439 00:57:35,600 --> 00:57:40,720 Hey Hey How's 440 00:57:40,720 --> 00:57:44,640 it going? 441 00:57:45,320 --> 00:57:49,960 Good How are you? 442 00:57:54,920 --> 00:57:56,320 Fine 443 00:58:16,740 --> 00:58:17,740 Stay clear. 444 00:58:18,280 --> 00:58:20,160 She swooned from the moon. 445 00:58:23,780 --> 00:58:25,320 I'll always be here. 446 00:58:30,800 --> 00:58:33,420 What was that? 447 00:58:38,340 --> 00:58:39,760 Just on my rope. 448 00:58:47,040 --> 00:58:48,260 Land from the moon. 449 00:59:02,820 --> 00:59:03,820 15. 450 00:59:40,420 --> 00:59:41,420 There she is. 451 00:59:42,200 --> 00:59:43,200 Oh, shit. 452 00:59:44,440 --> 00:59:45,440 She's so cute. 453 00:59:48,780 --> 00:59:49,780 It's too dark. 454 00:59:51,280 --> 00:59:52,280 Huh? 455 00:59:55,440 --> 00:59:56,440 Hey. 456 00:59:56,960 --> 00:59:57,960 Hey. 457 00:59:58,320 --> 00:59:59,320 Where you been? 458 01:00:00,180 --> 01:00:01,180 Just hanging. 459 01:00:01,740 --> 01:00:03,020 You want to go with us? 460 01:00:03,800 --> 01:00:04,800 Where? 461 01:00:05,780 --> 01:00:06,940 We'll figure it out. 462 01:00:10,399 --> 01:00:11,399 What's up, Chief? 463 01:00:11,680 --> 01:00:12,680 Why don't you tell me? 464 01:00:14,660 --> 01:00:15,660 You coming? 465 01:00:16,320 --> 01:00:17,440 Oh, well, where are you going? 466 01:00:18,160 --> 01:00:19,360 That's really none of your business. 467 01:00:19,620 --> 01:00:21,080 I'm about to make it some of my business. 468 01:00:21,780 --> 01:00:24,500 That's a good one. You picked it up at play school? 469 01:00:25,240 --> 01:00:26,240 No. 470 01:00:26,260 --> 01:00:27,720 No, we got a place for you here. 471 01:00:28,200 --> 01:00:29,820 Why don't you get your ass back home? 472 01:00:30,540 --> 01:00:33,500 Why don't you walk your ass back to me, little cronies, before you find yourself 473 01:00:33,500 --> 01:00:35,960 in a situation you can't handle? Is that right? Yeah, that's right. 474 01:00:37,160 --> 01:00:38,780 Keep pushing. I'm going to lay your ass out. 475 01:00:52,900 --> 01:00:53,900 You coming? 476 01:01:01,540 --> 01:01:07,520 A deep silence overtook the plain, filling his heart with comfort. 477 01:01:10,400 --> 01:01:16,300 He was home, protected by the great oaks that lorded over him, 478 01:01:16,740 --> 01:01:19,860 entrusted with a flock to pasture. 479 01:01:21,700 --> 01:01:27,320 Planters and craftsmen trekking to hear him speak and sing each sunlit Sunday 480 01:01:27,320 --> 01:01:28,320 morning. 481 01:01:30,360 --> 01:01:32,960 But darker waters lay yet another test. 482 01:01:34,920 --> 01:01:40,200 The youngest son of a humble maid caught in the purse line of his daddy's shrimp 483 01:01:40,200 --> 01:01:41,200 boat. 484 01:01:43,820 --> 01:01:45,860 What world would allow such pain? 485 01:01:47,800 --> 01:01:48,800 Let's go. 486 01:01:49,480 --> 01:01:50,480 Okay. 487 01:01:58,220 --> 01:02:00,280 Hey bitches, wait up! 488 01:02:09,300 --> 01:02:11,920 What dark heart of God lay shadow to the door? 489 01:02:13,380 --> 01:02:16,020 I think we all probably feel the same thing. 490 01:02:20,020 --> 01:02:25,900 And there's never going to be any comfort 491 01:02:30,730 --> 01:02:37,550 a love out there from God or nowhere else to 492 01:02:37,550 --> 01:02:38,550 lighten the load. 493 01:02:45,270 --> 01:02:52,110 When we stop and be 494 01:02:52,110 --> 01:02:57,790 still, we know that ain't quite right. 495 01:03:07,140 --> 01:03:12,840 This is born from some strange 496 01:03:12,840 --> 01:03:16,180 deep-seated love. 497 01:03:18,560 --> 01:03:24,580 Some gentle hand that knows and 498 01:03:24,580 --> 01:03:27,960 wants what's best for us. 499 01:03:32,170 --> 01:03:38,990 When fear and doubt comes down, we shouldn't be running 500 01:03:38,990 --> 01:03:39,990 from it. 501 01:03:42,290 --> 01:03:47,750 We shouldn't count to that raging beat we call the devil. 502 01:03:48,450 --> 01:03:55,090 We should be beating it back, destroying it with the one weapon we 503 01:03:55,090 --> 01:03:56,090 have. 504 01:04:22,860 --> 01:04:26,500 to do better in the wake of all that's not. 505 01:04:29,800 --> 01:04:36,540 Will and weakness and joy and pain 506 01:04:36,540 --> 01:04:43,460 carry one grace to dry mouth 507 01:04:43,460 --> 01:04:48,840 and parched lip like water in the desert. 508 01:05:08,010 --> 01:05:09,010 Be free. 509 01:07:10,090 --> 01:07:11,230 The road is long. 510 01:07:12,650 --> 01:07:13,870 With a lot of bends. 511 01:07:15,210 --> 01:07:17,390 Mapped in a way we're not meant to see. 512 01:07:18,790 --> 01:07:20,750 Shifts that change everything we know. 513 01:07:23,210 --> 01:07:24,630 I could be strong. 514 01:07:25,310 --> 01:07:26,590 I wasn't useless. 515 01:07:28,150 --> 01:07:31,770 It was better when I wasn't alone. 516 01:07:34,990 --> 01:07:35,990 Joseph. 517 01:07:37,210 --> 01:07:38,210 Joseph. 518 01:07:49,160 --> 01:07:55,420 Joseph. Where are we? 519 01:07:58,960 --> 01:08:00,300 Joseph's staying at his brother's. 520 01:08:50,600 --> 01:08:51,600 You be good. 521 01:08:54,439 --> 01:08:55,439 I will. 522 01:09:18,800 --> 01:09:19,960 I'll see you later, brother. 523 01:10:17,060 --> 01:10:18,060 Where did you sneak in? 524 01:10:21,720 --> 01:10:22,940 Just a little while ago. 525 01:10:24,440 --> 01:10:25,440 Hope that's okay. 526 01:10:25,840 --> 01:10:26,840 Oh, of course. 527 01:10:27,820 --> 01:10:28,820 Everything all right? 528 01:10:55,560 --> 01:10:56,560 I'm afraid something. 529 01:11:11,500 --> 01:11:12,020 I 530 01:11:12,020 --> 01:11:21,720 released 531 01:11:21,720 --> 01:11:22,720 it. 532 01:11:23,580 --> 01:11:24,760 For the first time. 533 01:11:27,660 --> 01:11:32,720 My own meager song of my own simple journey. 534 01:11:35,000 --> 01:11:36,540 A march to courage. 535 01:11:39,140 --> 01:11:40,600 Warriors at my side. 536 01:11:45,720 --> 01:11:48,940 Howard started working on one of the horse farms on John's Island. 537 01:11:50,260 --> 01:11:51,840 He met a sweet girl there. 538 01:11:52,460 --> 01:11:54,140 A free spirit who liked him. 539 01:11:56,420 --> 01:12:00,880 They settled together at her family's old house on the river, where she paints 540 01:12:00,880 --> 01:12:03,780 old bottles and scraps of driftwood and sells them at a local gallery. 541 01:12:07,240 --> 01:12:12,260 Most nights they smoke a J before dinner, and after a few beers, skinny 542 01:12:12,260 --> 01:12:14,380 dip off the river shore. 543 01:12:20,080 --> 01:12:23,480 Alan became a rigger on one of the cargo ships we used to watch float by. 544 01:12:26,090 --> 01:12:30,570 About eight months ago, he dove from the deck 50 feet up to save a fallen sailor, 545 01:12:30,590 --> 01:12:35,410 then held tight the unconscious body while the waves beat them both. 546 01:12:37,030 --> 01:12:38,030 The man lived. 547 01:12:39,310 --> 01:12:40,770 Alan was made third mate. 548 01:12:42,590 --> 01:12:46,190 He bought a small cabin on one of the marsh rivers that used to bind us, 549 01:12:46,570 --> 01:12:52,810 returning there every time they hit port, floating with the rise and fall of 550 01:12:52,810 --> 01:12:53,810 tidal creeks. 551 01:13:01,380 --> 01:13:03,980 I imagine he might watch me with pride from that perch. 552 01:13:05,700 --> 01:13:09,080 Because gone are the days of the sort of fear that cut me at the knees. 553 01:13:10,680 --> 01:13:15,840 It began with that bold kiss under a comfort moon from the first person I 554 01:13:15,840 --> 01:13:16,840 shared my writing with. 555 01:13:18,040 --> 01:13:21,740 And despite all my doubt, those words didn't strike me down. 556 01:13:23,020 --> 01:13:25,340 They would return to me, tenfold. 557 01:13:27,540 --> 01:13:30,500 With moments of connection that brought back that warmth. 558 01:13:33,190 --> 01:13:34,670 That born-again feeling. 559 01:13:36,310 --> 01:13:37,830 The sun on my face. 560 01:13:52,130 --> 01:13:53,130 It's rough. 561 01:13:53,510 --> 01:13:54,550 Need some work. 562 01:13:59,170 --> 01:14:00,170 What do you think? 563 01:14:05,130 --> 01:14:06,130 It's who I am. 564 01:14:08,910 --> 01:14:10,390 Spirit, did that change me? 565 01:14:11,770 --> 01:14:14,310 Well, you'll have plenty of those. 566 01:14:17,750 --> 01:14:19,150 Those are, uh... 567 01:14:34,500 --> 01:14:35,920 Wow, man, he's great. Hey, Joseph. 568 01:14:36,540 --> 01:14:37,540 Hey, wait up. 569 01:14:38,420 --> 01:14:40,940 Hey, was, uh, was all that real? 570 01:14:42,400 --> 01:14:43,400 Real to me. 571 01:14:45,900 --> 01:14:46,900 That's a good answer. 572 01:14:48,900 --> 01:14:49,920 Hey, let's go grab a beer. 573 01:14:50,860 --> 01:14:51,860 Can't. 574 01:14:52,440 --> 01:14:53,440 Gotta meet tomorrow. 575 01:18:23,180 --> 01:18:24,720 We'll be right back. 576 01:18:58,480 --> 01:19:01,260 We ain't lost on the promised land. 577 01:19:01,960 --> 01:19:03,820 On the promised land. 578 01:19:04,220 --> 01:19:06,240 What you got to say, Edwin and Darius? 579 01:20:17,860 --> 01:20:19,480 happening. We're